AEIOU! You have to learn these! You will never be able to do anything in life you don’t learn these!
I can remember this Nun screaming at me day after day. Some days she would slam her palm on the table to accent each letter.
It never made sense to me.
The following year there was writing incentives that had me super excited. All I needed to do was write a very simple story and I would earn a book! While I couldn’t read it was still something I desperately wanted.
Like all good things, there was a catch.
The story had to be perfect. Capitalization, punctuation, and spelling. It took me years to spell my own name, there was no way I was ever going to earn a book.
I tried. Story was rejected over and over.
She told me to look up how to spell the words in the dictionary, like the other kids, but some of the words I didn’t even know how they started. I would sometimes just start looking at random pages hoping it would jump out which it never did.
I remember friends digging through the book box and complaining that they already had all the titles while I dreamed of just one.
I did get a book but it was never earned. I took it but felt ashamed, it was a pity book. It stings even today. It was that book with the little girl, the bear and some berries.
This pattern continued for years.
One day I decided enough was enough and I left never looking back.
My biggest regret was not sharing this story with my own class of second graders years ago. I wish I could go back and tell them these stories and so many more.
I was ashamed. I know that some will, and might do, see me as a lesser person because of it. That used to bug me but not anymore.
This quote made me think of something, don’t hide your struggles. There are so many that could benefit.